Every Time You Try to Fix Yourself You Make It Worse.

You never ever wanted to be healed. I want to feel healed. I just I just want to be, you know, >> [music] >> I want to stop uh I want to stop running. I can feel where I'm not taking [music] care of myself and I'm I'm eating food that makes me sick. It's a self-soothing like five,

six times in a day. And then I have all this shame around it. >> What I want you to realize, Philip, none of those are the problem. They are the [music] solution. I just want to be happy. Your nature is freedom. But you're psychologically, emotionally telling yourself that you can't do something, then because of our

nature of freedom, the inclination is towards that. That's the frustrating thing is that I'm I'm having this new awareness and I have moments where I feel bliss and beauty and I write these songs and everything makes sense. Most human beings in their identity are defined by something they're not. I'm not good enough. I'm not loved.

I'm not valued. I feel the one of the most pivotal moments that has defined Philip's persona is Dude, I'm just I'm cracking up, man. When I when I got the email from Cambria, I brought my whole family and all the kids and I read the email and my 11-year-old was like, "Dad, you're about

to get crowned. For real." And that's what we say in our house and we'll watch highlights and I'll be like, "Babe, come watch this Danica Patrick. She's about to get crowned. Watch this." And my my daughter my 14-year-old be like, "She got crowned. Get crowned." It's like a thing in our house. I love it. It sounds like you have a lot

of fun in that house. I'm really really I'm just touched and flattered that uh my work has meant that much to you. You obviously have such a a spirit. I know you're not without your challenges and we'll get to that today and I I appreciate the video you submitted which everybody does, you know, prior to