Finding Love in Your 30s

I want to work on love okay who here loves love yeah all right we can carry on I really want to be in a relationship and have a family and I'm going to be 39 and I'm like okay like okay I am a child of divorce just evidence for your story yeah um and I I did like meet someone I

was 20 that was very much like a soulmate madly in love okay literally worshiped the ground this man walked on yes we got married I was so happy and then and I found out he was like living a double life it was a very wild scenario okay and then two weeks later my brother was murdered missing and

murdered as you can imagine totally decimated me yeah it's been 11 years I've done a ton of healing around it since both happened like okay I want it all back I want to like meet someone and build a life and do the thing but yeah so the first of all you want to realize

folks that when you say things that are a lie anything that comes after that is not going to exist it it can't right so you can't go back to what you had now I get what's implied with it but energetically because you're trying to fulfill on something that's impossible you keep sustaining which is

the part you get to be right about not having a relationship so what is it that you think you want by going back there I guess a feeling it's a feeling isn't it yeah really at the end of the day you're after a feeling you're not even after the dude that you worshiped right yeah

exactly double life all that he didn't he really didn't sound that great no sounds like you were more more than anything you were naive yes I certainly remember when I fell in love at 20 I was really not that smart I don't want to go back to that right yeah okay but can you see in the