Я думала,что устаю от людей. Оказалось - от роли хорошей девочки

I consider myself an introvert. I don't like communicating with people. It really tires me out, exhausts me, and takes all my energy. I would rather be alone with myself at home than in the company of someone, go somewhere, meet someone, and so on. That is, I gain energy and fulfill the resource alone. And

before I thought that, well, this is my nature, I’m not made for society, I’m such a hermit. But one day I had an epiphany that destroyed all my illusions about myself and my life tactics. And I realized that I don’t get tired of people, but I get tired of pretending. So, now I realized that I have some kind of

Harry Potter set, today glasses, this wand. I realized that when I come into contact with people, communicate in some way or another, interact, I put on a mask, the mask of a good person, a good one, a comfortable one, a nice girl, a sunny, bright ray. So that no one would find fault, so that

everything would be perfect, so sterile, so that it would even be rigid. That is, I have always been the kind of person who is very giving in dialogue. We could meet someone there and talk for hours only about the other person, meaning I would n’t have to talk about myself at all. That is,

if I wasn’t asked, no problem. I can talk about you for hours. I will be very involved in the dialogue. I react very vividly to every fluff of yours. Even if you're talking complete nonsense, I'll laugh, I'll smile, I'll support you, so that you feel completely comfortable, accepted, loved, no matter who you

are, no matter what you say. Everything for you. So where are we going? We'll go wherever you want . What movie shall we watch? Here. What kind of movie do you want to watch? Ah, yes, very funny. Yes, there, yes, yes. Well, that is, it is like this. Although it might not at all coincide with my sensations,